i'm so tired...
Mood:  sharp
Well, I just got home from my first Ladies' Conference at the camp. It was really weird to be there with no kids... and to be there when everything was super organized. I have to admit, being with adults was not bad at all. Maybe it won't be SOOO bad to grow up... Ha! Steph, Jessie and I had lots of fun pretending to be both workers and retreaters depending on what situation suited us better. We had late nights playing Scrabble, talking, visiting at the Grifts, and hanging out with Meg. I think I got less sleep all weekend than I usually do in one night. Some of the ladies went through every single guy close to my age that they could think of trying to set me up. I don't know why every conversation I have with people seems to turn to talking about my marriage...
Anyway, I'm exhausted now and I just want to go to bed. Fellowship of the Ring is on CBC so I guess I'll watch that first. Later.

all i can hear is hamster wheels
Mood:  rushed
Alright, so it's pretty late at night and the 6 hamsters are all making tons of noise as I reflect on my last few days. Not much has really happened... I went bowling a couple of times and dyed my hair... Meg and I went to a couple of farmer's markets and a flea market... Jill came over to visit Amos and I went with them to Sussex tonight when he preached... I looked after Lori... Hmmmmm... now that I think about it, I don't know how I felt bored. I think it's the awful rainy, cold weather.
Anyway, God has been answering some of my prayers for what to do in the future in AMAZING ways. Just tonight, some opportunites for next school year fell into place and I'm really starting to get excited for the summer at HBC. It's so funny how we pray for things and think they are SOOO far in the future. Then, before you know it, God answers in ways you could have never imagined. His timing is so perfect and it's so hard for me to understand at times. But... what a privilege to know for sure that He holds our tomorrows AND our todays in His hand. I've had a kind of hard week, but God knew it was what I needed to learn the things He taught me through my stupidity. In some ways, I have never been as scared of what He is calling me to do than I am right now. I'm terrified, but praise the Lord for His peace and His unending love.
I don't know if anyone even reads these things that I write about (and I honestly don't care), but I DO know that no matter how I think, feel, act, or speak God is still in control. I realize that this entry is completely complicated and hard to understand (plus, it's a little more serious than I ususally write), but sometimes I need to pretend that I have a little bit of emotion (no matter how mixed up it may be).

Rainy Day
Mood:  irritated
Well, I was supposed to do gardening all day today, but i got rained out. So instead, I've been home just cleaning and unpacking from camp, Japan, and grad. I suppose that after a month it was time to be able to see my floor...
Amos got home today so now the whole family is home. This is usually when the most fights and stuff happens. Enh, it will only be for about a month. However... I think that's the longest we've all been here in like 4 years. Phil (the youngest) turns 16 this week and is going for his licence. I can't wait to take him driving...
Well, I should go now since the boys are all in here and want the computer... plus, Jenn is going to be here soon.

i have a job
Mood:  not sure
Yup, so tomorrow I start working at the Academy as a monitor in the grade 4 and 5 class. It should be interesting. Plus, I'm going to be doing some gardening next week. I don't know how long I'm going to be employed for but at least I get a little money toward a car... and a road trip.
Well, that's all I have to say becuase Ben NEEDS the computer. Until next time...

a picnic under the cow
Mood:  bright
So, this weekend I took a van full of kids to HBC to do some cleaning. On the way, we decided to stop and have a picnic in Sussex under the Irving cows--Daisy and Buttercup (?). We had lots of good food... like chicken and fluff... and lots of fun taking pictures. I think everyone should picnic there...
We had a good time at the camp, too. I can't believe how dirty that place was. We went through like 4 buckets of water on the chapel alone. I'm pretty excited that all 7 of us that went will probably be working there for the summer. It should be a great time!
Tonight after church Hannah and Steph came over and we watched the movie "Hero". Now, we didn't realize until we got home that it was all in Chinese. Oh well, it was still interesting. We pretty much just laughed through the whole thing... then Hannah spilled the popcorn and Ben spilled the Kool-Aid. Oh the things we do to occupy ourselves...
Anyway, I still don't have a job, but I might go apply at Tim's tomorrow. Man... Well, that's it for today's insite into my boring life. Hope your's has a little more excitement... Ha!

i have nothing to do...
Mood:  spacey
Well, I officially have nothing to do. I'm pleased to be able to say that I have finished with NBBI for the rest of my life! However, now I need to find a job and stop being a 22 year old bum. I've only been home for a day, but I'm ready to leave and do something. I think I'll find a job this week...
Graduation went well... for the third time in four years. There were so many people there that I wanted to talk to, but time was SOOO limited. Oh well! I guess that's what email is for.
I'm proud to be able to say that I made it through all that time without becoming a lounger... In other words, I didn't have a boyfriend. Ah, the freedom! Now I just have to make it through a couple of years at Bethany :)
Yup, well, it's quite late and I just felt like writing something. I'm home for a couple of months with nothing to do so give me a call or send along an email. THE END!

canadian idol
Mood:  celebratory
well, me and the boys decided to go to canadian idol today since it was in moncton and we had nothing else to do. we were originialy going to stay overnight at the arena but we decided to go at 630am instead. there weren't really very many people so it's a good thing that we didn't go... would have been a waste of time.
anyway, the only problem was that i'm sick and i don't have a voice. so, i wasn't going to sing, but i figured i might as well do it anyway to prove to my campers that i wouldn't get in. I sang 'his eye is on the sparrow'... well, tried to sing it... ben sang 'amazing grace'. yup, it was lots of fun.
phil was there too, but he was just along to skip school and take pictures. ha!
well, i'm super tired right now so i'm going to stop writing and go to bed.

guess what...
Mood:  don't ask
my internet time will run out in 2 minutes, but i just wanted to say that as i type i am sitting in the airport in tokyo. i'll be home sooooo soon. Crazy. uh oh... one minute... good bye japan ;o(

international dinner
Mood:  party time!
Today was interesting. We went to Karaoke with one of our English classes. It was tons of fun. They are great ladies.
Tonight I went out for dinner with a couple of my friends from the Phillipeans. We went to Malasian restaurant. It was sooo good!
Anyway, i just want to say that one week from right now I will be over the Pacific Ocean. Well, gotta go to bed. Bye!

i want to plant flowers
Mood:  lazy
Well, spring came to Japan… then it left. The weather has been pretty nice for the last couple of days, but it’s been snowing all day. Jon says that it’s so that I won’t have such a shock when I go home. It’s bad though because I bought flowers a couple of weeks ago to plant in the garden… but they’re still in my room dying…
Everything is going well here. English classes are all done. I only have one more Sunday school class left to teach this weekend.
I’m almost done buying all my souvenirs now… which is good because I’m running out of money :o) All that I have left to do is pack… which will be interesting because everything is NOT going to fit into my suitcases.
It’s nice not to have too much to do right now because the month of April is packed when I get home. According to my calendar, I have something to do almost every day. At that rate it will take me the whole month to get over jet lag. I DO think it would be funny if I fell asleep at graduation…
On Sunday we’re having a potluck dinner at church since it is Easter. I can’t wait because they are SOOO good here! Lots of sushi and stuff… It’s kind of my ‘going away’ party, too. I’m not too sure what they’ll do though.
Anyway, I don’t really have much to write about today so I’ll just close by saying that I’ll be in Canada in 11 sleeps!